22 weeks: crying and socializing

So, it has been a week since we found out the gender of our baby, and I am still trying to come to the terms with the fact that I have a little man inside of me!

When Jeff and I first talked about having kids, I absolutely wanted to have a boy first, a big brother to any other children we might have. But alas, that was the logical, hormonally balanced me saying that. Now, we are dealing with the unbalanced, emotionally challenged, cake craving pregnant woman that has taken over my body. So I guess it shouldn't have been any big surprise that after we had the sonogram, made phone calls to relatives, and settled in at home, I would just start to cry. I'm not entirely sure why; but, I think I was mourning the fact that our baby wasn't a girl. Crazy, I know, especially since I WANTED A BOY FIRST. I guess I just thought it was a girl, and when it wasn't... water works.

Jeff was a little upset with me. He thought that we should be rejoicing that our baby was diagnosed as being healthy and normal, penis or no penis. I tried to think about that, but I just kept crying for over an hour. It didn't end there; the next day I was crying because I felt guilty about crying the first time. That's the guilty mother complex kicking in, I'm told.

Anyway, I'm doing just fine now and yes, I am happy to have a boy. I'll be indulging myself in some Superman and super hero comics (we have an attic full collecting dust) this summer to fully engage myself in this culture of boy. I'm sure Jeff will have some more suggestions as to how I can do that.

Otherwise, we've been quite busy these last couple of weeks. We visited my Mom and Joe up in the north woods of Wisconsin, and some of the Nicholson family at my Dad's house. We had a great time at Kristen and Sam's wedding and welcome home party. (The baby was kicking me hard after that party in reaction to all the noise.) And today, I had lunch with my friend Sarah who is pregnant and due November 19, one day before me! Can you believe that? The race is on Sarah! She's having a girl, by the way, something I don't hold against her.

That's all the news!

-Theresa